Assalamualaikum,
Subhanallah (Glory be to Allah), it’s already another year.
Yesterday (24th
October 2014), starting from sundown was the new year of Islamic calendar.
Currently it was 1436 Hijrah, which
means it was already 1435 years since the Hijrah
of the Messenger, Muhammad S.A.W. (Sallallahu
Alaihi Wassalam)(peace be upon him).
For the past week, I have been
hearing stories, Quran verses and talk about Hijrah in tazkirah at the
office, on television, and on the radio. I have been asking myself a lot of questions;
What does Hijrah means to me? What have I achieved last year? What have I
achieved for the past 30 years of my life? What good deeds and bad deeds have I
done?
However, after all of those
questions running in my mind, I have realized that there was nothing more I can
do about my past. I can’t change them. I can’t change all the bad memories, or
undo all the wrongdoings I have done. All I can do is focus on the present and plan
well for the future.
Hijrah for me is a change, but it’s not solely about change. Hijrah is a change for the better. I
think we all are afraid of change. We feel safer in our own comfort zone,
afraid of people’s perspective of us or of our change, and afraid of taking
risk.
MasyaAllah (Allah has willed it), I was given a chance by Allah last
year to open a new chapter of my life. Most people see a muslimah’s hijrah when they see woman starts to
wear hijab (headscarf). Well, I am
already wearing one since I was little (about 12 years old I think), but the hijrah for me is much more than my physical
experience. My hijab was never really perfect, not proper or not with the right
intention I think. The hijrah I
experienced was within my inner self. I came to realize the purpose of my life
in this world, which is to worship Allah and to get His blessings. My
destination is the akhirah
(hereafter/afterlife), I want to be placed in the highest degree of Jannah (paradise), In Sha Allah (if Allah wills).
Apart from my hijrah spiritually, I also took a big chance changing my career.
Well, the latter happened first actually. It was a big step for me, and also
for others around me. I had been postponing
it for too long, till I cannot bear it anymore. Everything seems too difficult,
and I was lost. I took some time off, read books, read online about people who
were going through similar situation, and whoala!! It was decided!! When I decided
to quit, I did not see it as “The End”. I took it positively as a new chance
for a new life, and Alhamdulillah (Praise
be to Allah) it has been a good journey so far.
Well, it is time to move forward.
Yes, many things have happened in my past. Sometimes I rewind them in my head,
ponder upon them, and wish things would have been different but hey, that’s not
gonna happen. Yes, it is a good way to reflex myself, Muhasabah. I took it and am
still taking them as life lessons, and I still have many to learn and practice
to get closer to Allah SWT. I appreciate the present and saving the plan for
the future. What am I saving? Good deeds, rewards and blessings from Allah SWT,
for my palace in Jannah. Aamin...
Surah Ar-Ra'd (The Thunder): Ayat 11
"...Sesungguhnya Allah tidak akan mengubah keadaan sesuatu kaum sehingga mereka mengubah keadaan yang ada pada diri mereka sendiri;..."
"...Surely Allah does not change the condition of a people until they change their own condition;..."
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