A journey with ordinary story

Hi there, it has been a long time. A picture of me at Kem Baha, Gunung Stong, Dabong. (May 2023) I keep thinking... Is writing difficult? What have I been doing? When I came back here, I went through all the writings I did, and I was surprised with myself. I love reading my writings. Where has this person gone? I realize nowadays I am thinking to much before writing or posting anything. Before I start writing, I have my thoughts mentally. When I start writing, it goes all over the place, and I can't focus on the main topic anymore. I am also busy thinking if I need to find my niche, and find a focus point to write instead of covering all things. Basically, I'm thinking too much! Someone told me the same, and he said "Just do it!". Well, maybe I should. Looking back at my first entry, I realize that it was not my intention at the first place to focus on one thing, to get more viewers. I just want to share something, anything. It doesn't matter if anyone read it or ...

  Stepping out of my comfort zone is not easy. There are times when I was thinking, what if things don't work out even after I tried so hard? Am I not afraid of that?  Yes, things can be scary, risky, uncertain and uncomfortable. But if you start to focus on that, you can't even start moving and might be stuck in that thought process forever. Of course I do it for myself, but if I also think I am doing it for others, it gives me courage.  I choose not to regret doing it. Try to find meaning in it, and somehow not give up and enjoy the process. The destination might still be far, but at least I am on the journey. Welcoming myself on a new journey. It has been a good 5 months. Just another chapter of my life.

Hello November !! For Korean drama addicts, here is what's coming in November. A lot of great choices. Take your pick! 𝐃𝐫 𝐁𝐫𝐚𝐢𝐧 || 𝟎𝟒𝟏𝟏𝟐𝟎𝟐𝟏 || 𝟔 𝐞𝐩𝐢𝐬𝐨𝐝𝐞𝐬 A genius neuroscientist goes to extra lengths to uncover the truth behind the mysterious death of his family. Using his expertise, he tried to find clues by hacking the memories of dead people. This drama is based on a webtoon of the same name. This new sci-fi psychothriller drama is led by Lee Sun-kyun (My Mister, Parasite). This is the first Korean drama from Apple TV+. Trailer https://youtu.be/ZK2nevD7cWA 𝐇𝐚𝐩𝐩𝐢𝐧𝐞𝐬𝐬 || 𝟎𝟓𝟏𝟏𝟐𝟎𝟐𝟏 || 𝟏𝟐 𝐞𝐩𝐢𝐬𝐨𝐝𝐞𝐬 Setting in a near future impending apocalypse, where infectious diseases become the new normal. This drama depicted the psychological battle and social class discrimination within an apartment building. Things are getting worse when a new disease emerged. This apocalyptic thriller drama is led by Han Hyo-Joo (W), Park Hyung-sik (Strong ...

Life really can take you turn 180 degrees. Owh... children, how I have a love-hate relationship with you.  My last entry was about how I have decided not to have my own children. Have I changed my mind? Since then, I have learnt a lot about parenting and early childhood education. Weird? This is just how things go. If I don't like something (in this case children), it does not mean I can't love them right? So I just want to get to know them better. Well, children... you guys are genius! I am amazed on things I am learning. You little human being...so annoying, clingy and attention seeker. No, I don't hate them. I have learnt to accept that they are just being children. We are all once are children. But we always feel that we can't handle them, feeling that they are so demanding? It comes back to a self-reflection. We have always putting expectations on how one should behave, how one should not do this and that, but we forgot that these children is growing up, just star...

I have a couple of experiences taking care of my niece (2 years and 6 months old ) and nephew (4 yrs 10 months old) while my sister and her husband were away. Of course I was not alone. Actually their intention was to leave them with my parents, but it just happened that I was with my parents as well then.  This might be an untraditional thoughts. People said I might feel differently if I have my own child, one born from my womb. Someones said to me, "It's indescribable feeling. Yes, you'll have not enough sleep, endless chores, demands of attention, little time for yourself, but it will all worth it". Really? Knowing me, I feel like it's not for me. It's also not something I can just try, because when it happened, you have to commit for it. I don't want to be unfair to the child. It's not a responsibility that I'm willing to take. That's why I despise parents who neglect their child, and worse even abuse this tender human being...

https://www.theguardian.com/world/2019/may/15/teenage-girl-kills-herself-after-instagram-poll-in-malaysia https://www.thestar.com.my/news/nation/2019/05/17/cops-teen-who-committed-suicide-after-instagram-poll-suffered-from-depression/ https://www.bbc.com/news/world-48281152 https://www.thestar.com.my/news/nation/2019/05/16/outcry-over-teenagers-death/ The recent tragedy of a Sarawakian teenager's death last month who made a poll on Instagram, allegedly on her life before her death has been getting global attention. Ironically the incident occurred during the week of Mental Health Awareness Week (13 - 19 May - it starts every year on 2nd Monday in May). Following this tragedy, again, people start to discuss the issue of mental health seriously. It’s a bless in disguise, however unfortunately it is sad to see that mental health seems to have become seasonal discussion. Only when something happened, people will talk about it, and take it seriously, start looking for...

I am still here Not giving up Working hard (Am I?) To pursue the purpose of life, which I am still looking Trying not to live to people's expectations Trying to live up to my expectation, which is harder I am still here Trying my best (Am I?) Hope you are too We are all humans after all Make mistake, then learn the lesson Fall, then we will stand up again It's gonna be alright Even how hard I try, keep reminding myself There are greater force, in fact the Greatest He will  always be there He will always listen He of all knowing Whatever came, is coming and will come are all from Him Only He knows the best I am still here Will always be here I know You'll be here as well

Assalamualaikum, Subhanallah (Glory be to Allah), it’s already another year. Yesterday (24 th October 2014), starting from sundown was the new year of Islamic calendar. Currently it was 1436 Hijrah , which means it was already 1435 years since the Hijrah of the Messenger, Muhammad S.A.W. ( Sallallahu Alaihi Wassalam )(peace be upon him). For the past week, I have been hearing stories, Quran verses  and talk about Hijrah in tazkirah at the office, on television, and on the radio. I have been asking myself a lot of questions; What does Hijrah means to me? What have I achieved last year? What have I achieved for the past 30 years of my life? What good deeds and bad deeds have I done?  However, after all of those questions running in my mind, I have realized that there was nothing more I can do about my past. I can’t change them. I can’t change all the bad memories, or undo all the wrongdoings I have done.  All I can do is focus on the present and plan w...

I believe everyone has a story to tell People used to tell their stories through writings; journal, diary, memoir Some prefer to tell directly to other people, be it someone they know or a stranger We have family, bffs, friends, pen pals or even shrinks! In the Information Age as we are now, we have social medias, blogs as medium to share with others Stories, information, knowledge have become limitless and shameless People are becoming more self-centered or should I say narcissistic We share almost everything Despite we see more evils these days, we are sharing more and more with strangers everyday Do we easily believe in other people that much nowadays? Sharing has gone a tremendous change these days Whatever foundation it is, hopefully it doesn't cause any harm It took me quite sometimes to think about what am I gonna write Whenever I am not in front of my computer, I have many ideas, feel like I wanna write everything Whenever I read other people's writing on...